It's Becoming More Real

Monday we went to court. CPS took Mandatory Custody of Talon and placed him with me. It was surreal. I am so sad for Katherine and although I am glad for Talon that he will have a safe and happy place, I am so sad that my daughter is so sick and incapable of taking care of her own children. She lvoes them I know. She just can't handle life.

I am beginning to understand that in a year, Talon will probably be mine permanently. He is so precious and it is such a gift to watch him grow. He is amazingly resillient. He has been through so much and yet he laughs and explores. He has a wonderful sense of humor, running here and there, engaging others. Last night at church he was running to his little friend Liam, back to Liam's mother to report something (no one knew what he was saying) and back again to Liam. He had pneumonia in January so everyone at church was thrilled to see him so active and having such a good time. I love him so much. Being with him all the time makes me so happy and yet it is bittersweet missing my other grandchildren so much. I am hoping Lauren, Emily, and Blake get to come to my house over spring break. We will have a great time playing games and doing fun things. They bring such joy to my life.

Who knows what the future holds for us. I see lots of adventure and good times. I also see heartaches and trials. Is that what getting old does to us?